MY STORY, our story

My name is Nicole Smith my mother was diagnosed with stage 3 Pancreatic Cancer in March 2013.

My Mom was such a strong women. I don't know how she did it but I admired her strength. She had a fight in her that is unbelievable, there were days when I looked at her and I asked myself how she did it. She was such a happy women and when she loved she loved with her whole heart. I've never in my life have come across someone who loves life as much as my mom did. I never imagined being told that my mother has the big "C" Well, that day came and I will admit it was what I thought was the WORST day of my of life at that moment. But my worst days are living without her every day.

I can't describe the heart break I felt and still feel, it's a feeling that I hope nobody ever has to endure. At first I felt empty kind of like somebody sucked the life out of me. Then I looked at my Mom in the hospital when she was diagnosed and my heart broke into a zillion pieces, than I got MAD! I'm a firm believer that  everything happens for a reason, but still to this day I can’t figure out what the reason was that MY MOM was not only diagnosed with cancer but Pancreatic Cancer!


I will never understand why, but what I do know is:  I love my Mother with all my heart in life and death. So at that point I knew I had to be the "STRONG" one. That's just what I've been "STRONG".

Sadly at the age of 53 my mother gained her purple wings on the night of May 1, 2015.

Her battle was 2 short years and she fought until her last breath. 

Pancreatic Cancer changed my entire life. I will do whatever it takes to help others who are fighting P.C. and help the families cope in their time of need. That is why I started STATEN ISLAND’S FIRST Pancreatic Cancer Foundation. I know what it’s like to fight the Pancreatic Cancer battle with someone I who gave me life, I know what it’s like to want to break down but couldn’t because there was no time for it. I know what it’s like to need to speak to someone who was dealing with the same issue and not find anyone. Most of all I now know what it’s like to be a motherless daughter because of Pancreatic Cancer.

My goal is to help as many patients and families as I can with financial assistance during their battle with this horrid beast. I will be doing this by fundraising and collecting donations. I thank you all for your support.